Morbid thoughts

I've been thinking about mortality this week. One of my friend's dads unexpectedly passed away Tuesday after having a "minor" heart surgery last week. He was doing fine and then he just collapsed and passed away as his wife was trying to give him CPR. My mom and I have had a conversation over the past year of so about how suddenly death can creep up on people, as more people seem to die just "because it's their time to go."

My ex-step-grandmother died over Thanksgiving weekend totally randomly: She was walking her daughter and her family out to their car to say good-bye and the fam had to go back in the house to get something. Nona was waiting in the garage but when the family came back out no more than 5 minutes later, Nona was sitting by the wheel of her car, totally dead. So sudden and unexpected. My grandfather passed away watching a John Wayne movie from his favorite chair. Another one of my friends works at Target and a man died in the parking lot there on Monday as his wife tried to revive him using CPR. One of my great-aunts passed away about two weeks ago from cancer after months of excruciating pain in a hospital-- it was basically a blessing that she finally passed away. Yet, so many times, it seems it's just time for people to go and they die whereever they happen to be.

I've just been thinking about what to have in order (i.e. organize life insurance/mortgage/etc.) so that in event of the unexpected, things can be taken care of easily. It's weird to think about, but really, you never know what's going to happen. How will anyone access bank accounts if I'm the only who knows passwords and account numbers? Just thinking. Morbid, yes... but worth thinking about, I think.

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A random thing happened-- I got a one line email today from the guy I was going out with in January (the one I went out with a few times before our schedules never matched up and he sent me a text asking if I liked him). My dilemma of the day is: do I write back? do I continue to ignore him? Seriously, I thought LAST week was awkward enough but this week has turned out to be almost as awkward! So, um, due to an awkward situation that came up out of nowhere a couple of days ago, I've decided to change the status on one of my blogs for a while... I'd actually been thinking about discontinuing it all together due to a lack of interesting things happening in that aspect of my life and then ... well, let's just say I've decided to lay low for while! If you'd like an invite though-- please let me know!