clinical trials...

Wednesday Mom went to a check up at the Huntsman. Her surgeon told her that after three unsuccessful rounds of chemo, cancer can actually become immune to treatments and so the next step to consider it getting in on clinical trials the Huntsman is constantly doing.

Friday, when meeting with her oncologist, Mom and Dad pretty much decided that doing the experimental treatments will be the next step. The oncologist said that nothing has really changed and they'll do more CT scans next week to verify that nothing has really changed and hope that nothing has gotten worse.

After the CT scans and an appointment on Friday to compare new results with last resutls, they'll schedule a consult up at the Huntsman for the trials program.

At the point, I've only talked to Dad about this and he is being pretty stoic and practical about it all. I guess at this point, it looks like anything will kill her (chemo, cancer, etc.) so you may as well do the "crazy" things and hope that something works.

Mom is still hooked up to her stomach tube all the time, has started throwing up more again, is on IVs about 18 hours a day for nutrution and fluid, and has grey hair growing in on her little head. Her hair looks like she got a buzz cut and it's really, really soft.

Mother's Day 2010

Changing topics: We had a good Mother's Day. I put together a picture collage of my siblings and myself with our mom as babies and little kids. As I put it together, it made me realize how much I miss my mom. She's such a different person now and I miss the woman I used to find. And I think I'm beginning the grieving process now and coming to grips with the fact that the woman she used to be is gone and no matter what happens, everything is different now and we just have to adapt and move in. It is what it is.