My sister and her two kids arrived today! Mom actually went to the airport because she wanted to get out of the house for a while and it really wiped her out once she got back  home. On their way to the airport, they stopped by the Salt Lake City Cemetery to find out about plots. Apparently, there are a lot of open plots that aren't completely recorded since it's one of the oldest cemeteries in the city (it's in the Avenues downtown and where most of the prophets are buried).

Tomorrow, Dad and I are going to walk around to find good locations and see if they're available. His to-do list also includes calling around for mortuaries and pricing coffins and the like. When he was telling all this to Amanda and me, I lost it, which made him cry and he said, "This is one of those horrible things you have to do and it has to be done." I feel so bad for him. He's taking work off until it's all over (unless something comes up) and just takes care of her and it's so sweet to see how attentive he is to her every need and how gentle he is with her.

I think one of the hardest parts of all of this is watching my family members be in such emotional turmoil. Tara and I had a nice chat today as we soaked out feet in the wading pool out back and we talked out some of her concerns about going back to school and having kids ask about Mom and her fears of going to a viewing- something she's never done before. As I listened to her, I couldn't help but think of the things I will most likely be doing with/for her in the next few years-- Homecoming dress shopping, college applications, Prom dresses, etc.

Mom is enjoying (I think) the visitors that drop by to say good-bye and cry with. She feels angry this is happening but she's trying to stay positive, not wanting to be angry as she goes to the other side. How annoying would it be to not know how long you'll be here and knowing how much pain everyone around  you is feeling. I can't even imagine trying to picture the world without me in it. I can't image the world without my Mom.