Monday, August 29, 2011

Today I woke up and thought for a moment that I would call my mom and talk to her. Then, I remembered that it's been just over a week that she passed away and we already had her funeral and I'm supposed to move on with my life.

I feel like someone took a cookie cutter in the shape of Mom to my heart and took out a piece. Somehow, I don't think that it will ever be filled.
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Meanwhile-- I came down with a cold/flu over the weekend, in part, I believe due to nieces with colds. I've been in pajamas since Saturday afternoon, missed church, called in sick to work and am now finally feeling better. Hence, missing Mom. Mom would have called me to see how I was feeling seeing as how I live alone and being sick and alone is oh, so fun. Granted, the boyfriend did call to see how I was doing and he did come over after work today to make me soup and refill my water bottle.
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Tomorrow I'm going back to school after  a week of being gone. We are on block schedule this year (A days and B days) and so far I have only seen each of my classes only once. I'm pretty much planning on redoing the first day to finally get routines and behavior expectations set; they've had subs for the last 2 times they've been in my classroom so it'll be interesting to see how things go. I'm hoping the bell schedules and the school wide issues have been resolved by now. Heaven help us if the admin is still in chaos!
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I'm not quite ready to give my reflection of the day of the viewing and funeral. I will say that over 400 people came to the two viewings and funeral and we were quite taken back at the love and support we felt from everyone who came. We saw friends from every aspect of life-- high school friends, elementary school friends, friends from Tucson, Orlando, Illinois, old wards, current wards, college roommates, coworkers, bosses, etc. My dad's office shut down for the morning of the funeral and they rented a van so that everyone could come. Thank you to everyone who came or who sent good thoughts our way!
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Thank you to everyone who has been reading my blog! I'm truly amazed at how many people have been reading and have been touched by my mom's  and our family's story in the past year. Hopefully, I'll be able to find interesting, inspirational, insightful things to say to keep you all reading!!

3 comments:

luvnmy10 said...

Adrienne, can I just say thank you so much for sharing insights and thoughts over this last 11 months. Reading how your mom and you and your family were doing helped me to keep all in the foremost parts of my mind, making it natural to remember you in my personal and my children's personal and our family's prayers. You see, I am ashamed to say I tend to be so caught up in the daily busyness of life that once people I love and care about move away, I lose touch. Reading your blog has helped me remember your mom and how dear she was to me and our family. I just love your mom and her love of life and the fact that she had fun living life. Thank you for sharing feelings so close to your heart, you made a difference in many people's lives by keeping us posted. Please remember that many are praying for you all to feel peace in your lives and comfort.

Lorana said...

So did you switch schools? I'm sorry you're sick. I hope you feel WAY better quickly.

Lindsay said...

Adrienne, It's Lindsay from Heather Heights days! Amy just wrote me and sent me the link to your blog. You look fantastic and reading through made me miss you a lot, and the days of eating frozen burritos underneath a poster of James Dean. I am so sorry about losing your mom. She sounds amazing. I was inspired by the fun and happy memories you wrote about her. I hope you are getting through okay. I will be thinking about you. Love, Lindsay