my current dilemma

"Much unhappiness has come into the world because of things left unsaid."

I found a greeting card with this quote on front when I was at BYU and contemplating trying to fight to get a guy back that I'd broken up with. Ten years later (wow! that's a long time!) I still have the card, even though I've thought about giving it to various guys along the way.

So, my current dilemma involves trying to decide if I'm ok with staying in "the friend zone" with my guy friend or if I get gutsy and tell him how I really feel! If I actually write how I feel on the inside of this card and give it to this guy, I risk losing the friendship if he completely freaks out; if I don't do it, I risk losing him anyway because he probably thinks I don't really like him since I've told him I'd rather just be friends than date someone. If I wasn't about 80% sure he likes me I wouldn't care at all because the 20% doubt is enough to make me want to just give it all up and not even try. I'm so bad at communication and I always end up in this situation and I always end up losing my guy friend to some other girl because I don't say anything. Sadly, I sort of believe that I'm not pretty, fun, interesting, talented, etc., etc., enough for someone to want to have in their life so I just give up.

Bleh...